Double the Flavor, Double the... what?

Don't get me wrong I still think having twins is cool, and a blessing, and special, and amazing, but the miracle of it all is lost at some points each day. One of these times being the middle of last night as I'm sitting on my bed with Finn on my lap indian style finally asleep but knowing full well that any small movement of him will awaken a screaming baby, and Ian in my arms rocking him to sleep and knowing that stopping this motion for even a second could result in another screaming baby. At one point I fell back on my pillow once Ian was okay with the stillness, but Finn had stolen all my clovers for his nice soft bed on my lap. So I lay there with one baby on my chest, one on my lap, and me cold as can be. I was actually happy when the next feeding time arrived so I could kick Neil and pass a baby over. The rest of the night wasn't too bad and no longer than any other night. By the morning these cute little guys were fine and we had a fine day.

The days are both faster than you can imagine and longer than you would wish them to be all at the same time. There are more dishes, laundry, cleaning, and picking up than I thought there would be because really who can plan for this. The work did not double... it quadrupled. The babies are more awake now and with that comes more crying. There are few other people who can understand what my days and nights are like, but I am lucky that there are a few women out here that have been or are managing life with twin babies and a toddler. We look at each other and sigh a sigh that only we can understand and both of us know we don't have the energy to go into the details so let's just not. There is a certain comfort in knowing your not crazy or weak, but that it's just a hard season in life.

I went for my six week check up today and had a good cry with my doctor. The good news is that good cry got me five extra weeks before I have to think about going back to work or if I will at all. My doctor had some brilliant ideas for making my life a little easier right now. She said I should sleep more at night, take a nap during the day, take a hot bath, try some relaxation techniques that I should go to the bookstore and look for a good book on, and possible I should hire a night nurse to take care of the babies at night. She is not getting paid enough because those ideas are just fantastic. Why hadn't I thought of those... oh, because they are completely UNREALISTIC!! After seeing my doctor, I went to see the lactation consultant upstairs. We had a good laugh about my doctor's suggestions and she loaded up a bag of goodies for me. As we were talking she told me there was another mom seeing her that had a toddler and twins my boy's age. This mom was not doing well and she wondered if I could have her call me to talk since I was doing so well. Wow! I told her that if this is "doing so well" then she can give me a call for sure. At least I won't tell her to take bath and get more sleep!!