One Month Already?!

I can't believe the twins are already one month old! They are growing like weeds and starting to really wake up. I can almost see a smile on it's way. I can see personalities starting to blossom and I have a feeling they will not be as identical as their looks. Ian cries more during the day and just wants a cuddle. Finn cries more at night and wants to sleep in our bed for a bit, falling asleep only after stroking one of our faces before he drifts off.
We had their one month check up today and the doctor could not have been more thrilled. He thinks that by two months they will be caught up both physically and developmentally. This is so unbelievable to me, but then again everything about these twins is unbelievable to me. I can't believe I carried them so long, how strong they were at birth to not need the NICU, that I was able to bring them home from the hospital with me, and now they will be right on track so early. Some twins take a few years to catch up to other children their age. I feel so blessed to have healthy children after hearing so many many many stories. The boy's good fortune is not lost on me and I hope it continues forever. God is good!

At one month a few more things are changing. I feel like my body is starting to remember what it is like to function on little to no sleep. The fog is lifting and I can almost think again. This is a good thing because my mom leaves tomorrow. She has been so important to my family this last month. I could never thank her enough for giving up her summer break to come live with my big family in my small and cramped apartment. She shared a room with my two-year-old and woke up every morning with him to make him pancakes. After dishes, laundry, feeding babies, teaching Tristan to read, and doing some baking she would get up the next day and do it all over again. I feel a little bad that she saw me at my parenting worst with my lack of energy, but she's my mom so I'm sure she will forgive me for that. After enduring a difficult pregnancy, recovering from surgery, and trying to figure out how to take care of two babies I needed my mom and she stepped up big time!! I hope I'm as good a mom to my kids.
As we get ready to say good-bye to her, I feel more confident than I did a few weeks ago that I can do this on my own. She has filled my freezer with pancakes and gowamki and will now head out to Cape Cod for a much needed and deserved vacation. Now how do I explain to Tristan why Neannie is no longer in his room when he wakes up?